I don’t know why that phrase is running around in my head, probably because of all the crappy crap crap that’s been happening. Brain Tumors, friends backstabbing, boyfriends abandoning…. let’s just say it hasn’t been a great week. On the plus side, which ids odd for me to say as I am not an optimist, I’m gearing up for NaNoWriMo, which should be fun. finishing a 50k word story will give me at least a little of my confidence back. So I guess I shouldn’t abandon all hope. Now, where did I put Pandora’s box?

Now Playing

Reading: Lemony Snicket’s A Series of Unfortunate Events

Watching: Heroes and the History Channel

Playing: Kingdom Hearts 2, again

Listening: AOL XM Radio on AIM, which rules!

Shopping: Not a lot, as I am broke, but I just got another knocked off my list for X-mas, now if the Brat would just give me his list.

Reading: All the Tanya Huff I can get my hands on, I’m in love!

Listening: “Love You” by Jack Ingram and “Two Pink Lines” by Eric Church

Playing: Tomb Raider Legends- still, I know and Safe Cracker for PC

Watching: Heros, Gilmore Girls (this season is shit compared to the others though)

Shopping: Working on X-mas- almost done! A bridal shower gift- I hate weddings!

So I’ve been more than a little depressed lately.  Getting off the whole life path things and being stuck in a job I can’t stand.  So I’m trying to make some changes.  Teh first of which I am implementing now.  I am going to blog everday for a week, as a warm up for NaNoWriMo (http://www.nanowrimo.org) which I WILL complete this year if it kills me.  So watch for updates on that.  I am also going to start reorganizing this website into something I can be proud of, rather than a carbon copy of every blog out there.  I need to get off my ass and do something with myself.  If I can accomplish something then maybe Ill get a little confidence back – which is really odd because ego has never really been my problem before- but with just a little self esteem back I think I can really get moving on all those things I know will make me happier.

Updates to look for:

My explosion on the state of the Packers, Yankees and Hawkeyes (all three have contributed, maybe too significantly, to my dark thoughts of late

The drama and trauma of my recent sleep issue

Excerpts from whatever it is I end up writing for NaNoWriMo (although it doesn’t start until Nov, and I’m going to try not to write any fiction until then, just to stay fresh)

More book reviews

More Lists

A new banner with code so all of my five readers can link me (I’d really like to know if anyone I don’t know personally reads this site- in fact even if I do know you personally, let me know if you read this site, it’s be nice to know if anyone was reading this)

New links

New format for the site, complete with downloads

A witty, subtle and very cool tagline- if I can ever come up with one

Thoughts on the trials and tribulations of studying for the GRE

Probably rants on everything, I’m in a rant-y kind of mood

Keep checking, I WILL update everyday for at least a week, hopefully longer.

(Yes, I am fully aware I’ve had many grandiose plans for turning my life around a dozens of points in my life and none of them stuck, but if I gave up trying… well- maybe all this self pity is why people don’t read the site?)

A New Lists page has been added, more to come

Reading: Why do Clocks Run Clockwise By David Feldman

Watching: Supernatural- I LOVE this show! Waiting impatiently for the Eragon movie to come out

Listening: The new Jo Dee Messina song, I don’t know the name ( I usually hate Jo Dee, so I don’t expect it to last) and Love You, by Jack Ingram (LOVE IT!)

Playing: Tomb Raider Legend on PS2

Shopping: Sprucing up my Amazon wishlist for the holidays

Despise

Abhor

Detest

Loath

Scorn

Can’t Stand

Spurn

Disdain

- and that, my friends, in a nutshell, is how I feel about the fucking Buckeyes