They Might Be Giants could totally write my theme song
Life is seriously unfair.
I’m writing absolute crap, not too stunning a revelation I know, but it’s bugging me, not because its crap, but because I can’t seem to get in the groove. I’m behind- like nine thousand words behind- and it’s looking less and less likely I’ll catch up. I’ve got a week off coming up; I’d better put down the Star Wars books and get my ass to work.
I expected to feel some blockage, but damn, none of my brilliant plotting seems to be holding up. I keep swerving off on tangents, getting lost in exposition, creating copious amounts of back story- basically anything I can do to avoid plotting. That’s always been my weakest aspect. I can wax eloquent with the best of them about settings, characters, back story, I just can’t create anything exciting. These people have been living in my head for YEARS and they just don’t do anything!
Frustration much?
I know I shouldn’t complain, I just get so damn annoyed with myself. Then I get depressed and ignore my writing blah blah blah. Willpower has left the building my friends.
So I broke my “No fiction until December” rule and starting reading some Star Wars novels- ever since I won $100 on the Star Wars slot machine my old obsession has reared its head. The writing it pretty mediocre, but the stories are great. I’m not huge on Sci-Fi as a rule, usually because I have a difficult time picturing the gadgets and gizmos described, which takes a lot out of the book. That one of the few place my overactive (but apparently unexciting) imagination fails me. But Stars Wars is easy to picture thanks to Mr. Lucas and I love Wookies. The good thing is, it’s not interfering with my own story. It’s also calming me down when I get into the “I hate myself” mode and keeping me just in the edge of creation mode, as I think about all the ways I could make the writing better.
Damn, what an ego. These folks are all published writers and here I am, with an ass load of exposition and fourteen main characters, thinking I can write better then they can. Sometimes I think I’m just a little on the far side of the sanity divide.
Reading: Star Wars
Listening: Anything heartbreak-y, as I’m still not over the EF split
Shopping: none, I’m broke
Watching: Super into Supernatural (see what I mean, CRAP!)
Playing: Nothing, no time