Eloquent as always I suppose.

Many, many things have happened.

My Mom died. It sucked. It really, really sucked. Still sucks in fact, will likely continue sucking for the rest of my life. Which won’t be much longer if I can’t stop fucking smoking.

I got engaged to The Boy. That doesn’t suck, but wedding planning, especially wedding planning without my Mom sucks. (The Boy used to be known as EF, but I decided I hated that. So I’m changing it).

I still have a shitty ass job that sucks more everyday.

I’ve gotten fatter and I hate it. Sucky.

I still live in my shitty, tiny apartment, now even worse because the Brat lives with me. He’s an okay roommate but there is NO MORE ROOM. It sucks.

I have no ability to write, at all, anymore. I barely read. It SUCKS.

That wedding I raved about a few years ago? Yeah, the marriage just dissolved. It really sucks, and now I’m scared to get married. Or rather, even more scared than before.

The Boy and are even further away from living together than ever before. I can not adequately state the suckiness of this development, other than to say, IT SUCKS.

I’m stressed, scared, depressed, my insomnia is worse than ever before, I feel sick a lot and have no money. I feel, for the first time in my life, truly 100% lost.  Things suck bad right now.

Just a message from your local downer. Something to let you know why six months have gone by without a post. That will change, I promise. I will also find some way to bring some positive to this blog also. I promise. It might suck anyway, but it will be positive!