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Are tears actually politically relevent?

I dislike HRC, I didn’t caucus for her, although I will likely vote for her if she gets the nomination. 

But if one more piece of shit news outlet publishes a story about her getting teary eyed, I will start a journalistic revolution.

From www.cnn.com “Hillary Clinton became teary-eyed during an event at Yale University Monday — a moment that harkened back to her much talked-about display of emotion on the eve of the New Hampshire Primary.”

For fuck’s sake!  Who honestly cares?  If she was a man would ANYBODY care?  If I wanted a robot for president, I’d vote for John Kerry again.

Liberal media my ass.  Sexist, double standard promoting, mysogynistic hypocrites is what they are.  They aren’t liberal or conservative anymore, they’re just mean.

Lalala

Yeah, long time and all that.  Moving on.

My newest way of avoiding writing/cleaning hobby is crochet.  Once I finish my octopus, I’ll post a picture.

I’m waiting to be an aunt.  It’s hard to believe that the little boy I’ll always think of as nine years old is going to be a dad.  Nutty.

The Packers lost.  I hate Eli Manning.  After his draft stunt I’ll never root for him, even if hell freezes over and they trade him to the the Pack.

I’m lovin’ American Idol right now.  I can’t help it.  I’d rename the blog “Tool-Girl” but I think everyone’s figured that out already.  I love Simon, I love crappy singers and I love being a tool.

Be prepared for some short posts.  I’ve decided to post just a few words if that’s all I can come up with, so forewarned and all that.

My cat is driving me nuts, as usual. 

I got a comfy new blanket.  On clearance too! 

Mom’s in San Diego, over her birthday.  But not for her birthday- she’s there for a conference of some sort.  Given the ice storm this morning, I’d say she picked a good time to go.  Still, She goes to classes and conferences about every month for the last few years.  Ever wonder why the Army sucks up so much money?  Armor?  Weapons? Medical Supplies?  Nope, it’s sending everyone all over the country so they can get together and drink, sightsee and of course hold meetings that decide/teach absolutly nothing.

Winter is starting to get on my nerves, comfy blanket or no.  Not a week has gone by since Novemeber where we haven’t been pounded with some combonation of ice/snow.  And don’t give me that, “Well, you’re in Iowa what do you except?” shit.  In the past ten years, I don’t remember a winter even half this bad.  Definitely not one that had snow on the ground for three months straight.  Buy some energy-efficent lightbulbs and cars people.  This global warming shit is making me nuts.

I’m in a mood today, can you tell?

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I’ve recently been a little obsessed with this site.  See how well you know me: http://likebetter.com/doyouknow/Hawkeyegirl

Post a comment once you try it.  Unless you are a spammer, I am SICK of spam comments!

Kraken up Baby!

I have a messed up sense of humor.  Check out the below article for a ripping good sea yarn from the merry shores of Hawaii:

http://www.hawaiitribune-herald.com/articles/2007/06/29/local_news/local02.prtDon%27t

I get all giddy when they find a new creature.  It just makes so much of the depressing crap in the world seem less, well, depressing.  I particularly like the comment “…unendingly in cephaloappreciation,”  one of the coolest words ever!

 By the way- should it be “Kraken’ up Baby” or “Kraken up Baby”?  Not that anyone reads this site, but I’ll take some nonexistant suggestions.

Trying out a new posting system

I know, I need to post more, I am trying you know. I even went so far as to download a new add on for Firefox to post easier. We’ll see how it works. I had a miserable day at work, then EF came over to comfort me and is now snoring on my couch. Vacation starts tomorrow and I haven’t had a single drink yet; I am a total loser.

What I’m reading right now (web-wise anyway): www.mentalfloss.com

Long Time No See

It’s been awhile, I know.  Busy Busy and all that.  I promised SuperSteve I’d write about him- so here we go- SuperSteve is AWESOME.  He drives a motorcycle and talks sports with me as an equal, instead of talking down to me like most guys.  All around he’s a stand up guy.  Three cheers and a round of “For He’s a Jolly Good Fellow,” and I can’t think of anything else, so I  hope that is enough, not that I didn’t mean every word.

Moving on, well, stupid joke I guess considering that is what I have been doing- moving.  To a piece of shit apartment that I hate.  Creepy people live in my complex and there is enough crazy traffic, just in the parking lot, that I personally look both ways twice before hitting the pavement.  The place itself is dirty and tiny and more than just ‘well used.’  My cat likes it at least, so only half the occupants are miserable.  I don’t even begin to have room for all my books, I have no idea what I am going to do with them.  I even got rid of some before moving (a painful and heartwrenching process, but they went to a good home) which leaves me with only two hundred instead of two hundred and fifty that don’t fit on my shelves.

As miserable as I am at my place, at least I get to live completly sans other humans (excluding the cat of course)  for a while.  Its something I always thought I would like, but now… I don’t know, maybe its because I hate the place so much. 

I don’t want to think about that anymore.  New topic- I think I am going to get a new tattoo.  I always seem to get the urge whenever something big happens in my life.  Don’t know what yet, something in Latin maybe.  ‘In libris libertas’ (I hope that is spelled right) or just the classic ‘Ex libris’ which would be a little weird, but cool. 

Sports wise, I don’t have cable anymore so I haven’t seen much.  The hockey playoffs were lots of fun though, the little bit I saw at various sports bars and noe the finals on regular TV.

Bookswise, I finished all eight Dresden Files in a couple of weeks- considering I was working two jobs and moving I think that shows how much I like ‘em.  Wish I could afford the new one, but its not in paperback yet.

Now that I’m in between books (I think I’m going to wait for Kushiel’s Justice before I start something new) I’m writing more, I’ll post a chunk in a bit, tell me what you think, even or especially, if you hate it.

 

That’s all for the moment, I’ll try to stay updated, for awhile at least.

And Doggy Makes Three

EF and I have a dog, year old black lab named Kingsley, aka F5 (or 6 depending on his mood) aka Don’t Eat That Kingsley aka, What The Hell Did You Do Now Dog?

He eats EVERYTHING.  Here is a super fun list of all the things the Blue Eyed Hurricane has destroyed.

- My two week old shirt, which I LOVED goddamn it!

- One of my books, for which I nearly killed him

- At least three magazine that I hadn’t read yet

- My crossword puzzle book

- Entire sealed cups of ranch dressing from fast food places

- One of EF’s Dad’s books, yet another near death experience

- plants

- styrofoam cups

- shoes, many many many shoes

- two pairs of brand new glasses

- the corner of the coffee table

Don’t get me wrong, I love him to bits, but damn!  I know what my Mom meant now when she said she couldn’t have anything nice when we were growing up.  Also my conviction on not bearing children has been re-solidified.

Super Super Super

It takes three times before that word starts to look funny.  I keep wanting to type souper.  Hehehe.  Anyway, I’m thrilled for the Colts, as you all know I am a toes to bangs Greenbay fan it would have been heartbreaking to root for the Bears of course, but I rooted for the Colts for more than the lesser-of-two-evils reason.  For anybody not paying attention, or just not quick enough to catch it, those reasons are Dallas “Soft Hands” Clark and Bob “the Machine!” Sanders.  Oh how I love those boys!  It brought a tear to my eye to see Sanders hold up the Lombardi trophy.  I suppose I’m happy for Manning too, as much as I would like to hate him for being born with a silver football in his hands, he played well, and seems to be an all around good guy.  He’d have to have a sense of humor about himself to make those terrible commercials.  Honestly, the person I am most happy for is Tony Dungy.  Aside from the personal issue surrounding him, its really just cool to see such a great guy win.  He worked his nuts off for this team for five years, he deserves it.  I like Lovie too, and not just because of his cool name.  A stand up guy in the truest sense of the word.  And being witness to a piece of history?  Awesome.

They Might Be Giants could totally write my theme song

Life is seriously unfair. 

I’m writing absolute crap, not too stunning a revelation I know, but it’s bugging me, not because its crap, but because I can’t seem to get in the groove.  I’m behind- like nine thousand words behind- and it’s looking less and less likely I’ll catch up.  I’ve got a week off coming up; I’d better put down the Star Wars books and get my ass to work. 

I expected to feel some blockage, but damn, none of my brilliant plotting seems to be holding up.  I keep swerving off on tangents, getting lost in exposition, creating copious amounts of back story- basically anything I can do to avoid plotting.  That’s always been my weakest aspect.  I can wax eloquent with the best of them about settings, characters, back story, I just can’t create anything exciting.  These people have been living in my head for YEARS and they just don’t do anything! 

Frustration much? 

I know I shouldn’t complain, I just get so damn annoyed with myself.  Then I get depressed and ignore my writing blah blah blah.  Willpower has left the building my friends. 

So I broke my “No fiction until December” rule and starting reading some Star Wars novels- ever since I won $100 on the Star Wars slot machine my old obsession has reared its head.  The writing it pretty mediocre, but the stories are great.  I’m not huge on Sci-Fi as a rule, usually because I have a difficult time picturing the gadgets and gizmos described, which takes a lot out of the book.  That one of the few place my overactive (but apparently unexciting) imagination fails me.  But Stars Wars is easy to picture thanks to Mr. Lucas and I love Wookies.  The good thing is, it’s not interfering with my own story.  It’s also calming me down when I get into the “I hate myself” mode and keeping me just in the edge of creation mode, as I think about all the ways I could make the writing better. 

Damn, what an ego.  These folks are all published writers and here I am, with an ass load of exposition and fourteen main characters, thinking I can write better then they can.  Sometimes I think I’m just a little on the far side of the sanity divide. 

Reading: Star Wars 

Listening: Anything heartbreak-y, as I’m still not over the EF split 

Shopping: none, I’m broke 

Watching: Super into Supernatural (see what I mean, CRAP!) 

Playing: Nothing, no time 

 

We must move foward not backward, backward not upward and always twirling, twirling, twirling!

Moving forward (not backward) writing is still going strong. 5000 words and more. It’s going well, as seen by the excerpt below, but not perfect. There’s a lot of stuff that needs work, way to much exposition for one thing, but just remember, it’s supposed to be that way. I’m going to a wedding this weekend out of town, then going to write my ass off with my day off. I’ll post another excerpt when I can. Also reading a new book, non-fiction so it doesn’t interfere with the story, I’ll post more on that later.

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She was alone.

Rhie sat, her eyes closed, listening to the pleasant whispers of animals and insects as dusk fell over the grey-black mountains she’d lived in for the last week. As she sat, calming the whirlwind of emotions just being on a Hero-marked island had caused, she heard, faintly, the sounds of her two Teerlian guides breaking camp, then sneaking away with what they thought was her bag of tools and concoctions. In fact, it was full of leaves and rocks with no use, except that they were spelled with an unpleasant odor that would stay with the thieves for weeks, possibly months, depending on their bathing habits.

Sighing, Rhie let her mind focus once again on her task, now doubly hard, but somehow she still felt a sense of relief to have the two men gone. She was searching for the almost extinct plant known as Starweed in these parts, or Silvertounge in the northern edges of the country, where she had been raised. The plant was well known in myth and legend for being able to cure almost anything. It had been all but extinct for nearly 150 years, supposedly wiped out by the Sea Wars, which, despite their common name, actually took place mostly on land. In fact, between the massive grass and forest fires set by both armies and the prodigious use of medicinal herbs native to the Silver Lakes and surrounding areas, Rhie was surprised that more plants hadn’t gone extinct.

As she sat cross-legged in the dying light, new, more intense feelings began to arise in her, as they did every night about this time. Owanee, the Twilight Heroine, rules this time, the union between the day and night, the flow of powers stronger than either separately but not a blending, no, a totally new power created from the old. Like a child, part mother, part father, but ultimately the part that rules is that which is unique to the child itself, that which has no real source but Chance. Dusk took on a magic unique to itself, part day, part night and yet neither.

These thoughts danced in Rhie’s head as the sun’s last rays touched the thick line of clouds on the rocky horizon, firing them in the heat of unmatched shades of pink, red and orange. Owanee was not Rhie’s Patron, but still Rhie knew how to feel for the heroine’s influence and the young demigoddess let Rhie feel her power. She never let her touch it, but merely allowed her a glimpse. It was always like that. There where at least eighty heroes, each with their own provenance and most would let Rhie see their power, see the gifts they bestowed upon those chosen mortals who would walk in their footsteps and follow their teachings, and some were even allowed wield their power and do their will here on earth.

That was how Rhie ended up here. She could feel and see the powers around her very young, almost as long as she could remember. She spent her childhood with her Mother, traveling from town to town, pedaling wares with the market trains that crossed the entire Empire, from the snow chocked Northedge, to the great Western Desert, across which lay the small country of Inuana resting on the coast of the Green Sea. Everywhere that Rhie traveled, she learned new stories about the Heroes, sometimes even learning about new ones, those Heroes rarely spoken of in ‘civilized’ company. Her mother may have encouraged Rhie’s desire to learn about the Heroes they worshipped secretly, but Rhie rather doubted her mother would have approved of her learning the sordid tales of Teria the Seducer or Hippete the Joyous or especially the notorious Erian the Pirate. Nevertheless, Rhie’s young mind was insatiable for new stories. Whenever she heard a new one, she tried out her connection to the Hero as soon as possible. Like reaching for Owanee at twilight, she almost always got a response, but never the one she wanted. She would get tacit acknowledgement most of the time, a peek into their energy and power if she was lucky. The world flowed with power, Rhie had been taught since she was born, and her life energy was a part of that flow, given to her by her parents and the will of the Mother Fate. Sometimes though, certain lives are Touched by one of the Holy Ones, or Heroes and so affected when they appear in the world. The Holy Ones are special souls, created by the Eight to perform certain tasks or lead people when they most need it. After they shuck their mortal coils, the Heroes are gifted with a special place in the world between Heaven and Earth if they so choose, so that they can affect the world of mortals, but not directly. They must use acolytes, Priests or Priestesses, or rarely, mortal souls given great powers with which to do their bidding for them. To these Avatars, the Holy Ones give gifts and powers connected to their particular skill or talent. Sehan the Healer, for example, when a mortal, gave the gift of medicine knowledge to the peoples of the world, and his chosen were given the gift Healing in many forms, from being able to see the illness, to the ability to divert pain, even the ability to physically heal. All the Heroes gave such powers to their chosen, to some degree, yet the Avatars were given something more, some near to their own powers, but adapted to the times in which the Avatar was living, to bring the specific help that was needed right then. Some even spoke to their chosen in some way. Yera the Seer did so through the omens of the future her Avatars read.

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